I have to start by saying a HUGE thank you for all the excitement and congratulations we got from our baby announcement. We are so excited and feel so very lucky to be pregnant.
Like I mentioned in our announcement post, I was absolutely sure it would take us a while to get pregnant. It was the morning of June 27th ( yes, I remember the date) and I woke up with cramps. I had felt a little off a few days before but I couldn’t place what it was. I had bought an ovulation kit off Amazon in May and came with a few pregnancy tests so I figured what the heck, I’ll take one. Positive. Lies I thought. Took another. Positive. HOLY SH*T!!!! At 6am, I woke up Chris and asked him to read the instructions and then look at the sticks. He went quite for a bit and eventually said: “well, it looks positive”. I immediately started to cry ( happy tears). Chris was still in disbelief so I told him I would take another couple tests from a few different brands. 6 positive tests later and a text to Chris , we realized we were going to be parents!!
A few days later, I started to have the worst cramps of my life. I would wake up in the middle of the night, barely able to sit up. I would then go lay on the bathroom floor for ten minutes at a time, waiting for the pain to subside. This routine went on 5-6 times a night and sometimes during the day. There was a point that I sat on the bathroom floor thinking if this will be my entire pregnancy, I didn’t know how I would get by. I started to look online and talked to a pharmacist about the cramping. I should have gone to a Dr. but I somehow convinced myself that would make me weak . I very reluctantly took a pregnancy safe laxative and hoped for the best. Things started to get better the week after and I was beginning to sleep through the nights.
The day of the wedding, while I felt better, I was a bit worried my cramps would return. As luck would have it, I only had a couple of moments during the whole wedding day when I felt achy. Thankfully, my Sister-in-Law and Mother-in-Law knew what was going on so they were able to help me out of my dress when I needed a minute to breath. Our honeymoon was the point when things really started to feel better. It was only on the plane ride home that I thought about reaching for the barf bag.
At 8 weeks, I started to feel off. I had read too much on the online ( those forums are THE WORST!) , heard too many miscarriage stories and managed to freak myself out. I was sure something was wrong and even though I had no symptoms, I worried I was going to miscarry. I went to the Dr. and he tested my HCG levels. The nurse called and said that while my levels were increasing, they weren’t doubling as quickly as they usually do. I was sent for an ultrasound within a few days. I will never forget the moment the tech turned the screen and showed me the heartbeat. The look on Chris’ face when he heard that noise, OMG, I can’t even explain it. Seeing and hearing our little peanut was the most amazing feeling.
I will never forget the moment the tech turned the screen towards me and showed me the heartbeat. The look on Chris’ face when he heard that noise, OMG, I can’t even explain it. Seeing and hearing our little peanut was the most amazing feeling.
Later on, my friend Liat made the comment that maybe I had been so sure that something was wrong because I didn’t trust that we would be so lucky to get pregnant so fast. Her comment really hit home with me because she was absolutely right. I had mentally prepared myself to not be able to have a child for so long, that was in disbelief when those two lines appeared on the stick. I still have moments of worry but instead of dwelling on the worry, I am choosing to trust in my body, in our baby and just have faith.
Aches and pains and worries aside, I had a good first trimester. I rarely felt nauseous which I hear is a true blessing. My food aversions were really strange. I couldn’t stand to look at the ends of meat ( like the end of a chicken breast or piece of steak). One night, Chris and I were having dinner and even though we were eating the exact same meal, I couldn’t stand to look at his plate. As for my cravings… HA! my cravings were ( and still are) all over the place. Ideally, I need to move into a buffet restaurant since I want a little bit of everything: fruit, McDonald’s fries, rhubarb crumble, salads… it’s all over the place.
I have been feeling exhausted but it’s nothing a nap can’t cure. For those of you wondering, YES we are finding out the gender. Before we got pregnant, Chris vowed that he didn’t want to find out. But three days after getting our positive pee sticks, he already was wanting to know if its a boy or a girl. We both have our hunches about what it could be but as cliché as it is to say, we really don’t care about the gender. Happy and healthy is our main focus for baby K and no matter boy or girl, this baby is going to be ( and already is ) loved like crazy.