Many times over the years I have heard such sayings as “Everything happens for a reason” and “Things will work out” and the ever famous ” Don’t worry, be happy”. These sayings have been hurled at me in the last three to four months of this year as I am sure happens with most people when life inserts a speed bump ( or in some cases equator size holes) in the path you thought you were going down.
As the years have gone by, and I have gotten older, I have noticed that my reaction time to bounce back from those one-off speed bumps has gotten shorter . However, lately I have been having a hard time. Make no mistake, this is by no means a ” poor me party”… just feeling a little lost. My trust in the system(and at times with people) seems to be diminishing.
What do you do when you continuously choose to put a smile on your face , believe that things will work out and then life kicks the air out of you yet again? I am more than aware that things could be much much worse. I often replay to myself over and over all of the blessings I have in my life, always ending with “And your still alive!!!”
There is a saying that says “Life ( God, if you are religious) never gives you anything you can’t handle”. I have had an extended conversation with a co-worker about this saying. While it maybe true, it also implies that the day you can’t handle it, you will die! Ouch! Not really a line I want to live by.
So what’s the solution?
I have no idea. ..
But I do think that as much as we all try to be super human, stand tall and put that smile on , it’s just as important to go out and kick something ( something.. not someone), eat some really bad food, and close the door and have a really good cry.
And as much as I honestly don’t see the light at the end of the tunnel right now, I have to trust that I will one day… but until I’m ready to get there….